The flowing lake is always filling, but is never full. Once there was a true sense of fullness— of which all that now remains is an empty print and trace. The lake strains for completion with waters around it— seeking in things that are not there the help it cannot find in those things that are. Instead, there is a chronic ache that comes from feeling incomplete.
Sometimes on my morning run, I hear the call and response of two owls. They move around, never in the same place twice, but I know who they are because the smaller of the two is one white note higher on the keyboard, and each has a pitch always the same. No one owl initiates the call every time. They take turns. The 2-hoot call is followed by a two-Mississippi wait for the 2-hoot response, then they take 15 seconds to think about it before the next exchange. I imagine both are saying the same thing: “I am yours. I am here for you.”
With a plumb-line, the wall of Israel was erected with closely-fitted, well-joined stones. These perpendicular stones were the very bones of a great nation, but a careless people neglected their promise to the Lord. They failed to stay the ruin. And now the Lord is holding a line and plummet against the wall. It is used for building up; the line is also used for tearing down as the demolition crew decides how much to raze. The Lord bears long, but the Lord won’t bear forever. The herdsman Amos foretells the coming days of desolation for an errant nation who lost its way. The bowing, bulging wall is put to the measure; by the sword of justice, the edifice is swept away.
NOTE: From Bud and Mary. The year was 1956 when I was 14.
Friday Night Fights Every Night
The Gillette Cavalcade of Sports–Boxing from Madison Square Garden with the Look Sharp/Be Sharp theme song and Jimmy Powers announcing was a regular Friday night event for Dad and me.
Dad never boxed himself, but he loved the manly art, the sweet science as it was called.
I was fascinated by the different styles of boxing: the peek-a-boo face shield defense, the flailing perpetual-windmill offense, the powderpuff jab while backing away, the lethal left cross, the unexpected uppercut, and the thunderous knockout right when the victim drops his guard.
For entertainment, the best matchups paired the buzzsaw free swinger against the cautious counterpuncher. It was fun to watch.
But buzzsaw vs. counterpuncher was no fun at all when the parents squared off later in the 1950s. It was Friday Night Fights every night of the week.
Mother was a free swinger, always throwing the first punches, launching one haymaker after another: accusations of bad faith and compromised loyalties. Dad deflected the blows with his annoying fact-checking, his claims of innocence, and by pointing out she needed help.
There was alcohol, always alcohol, to juice the aggression.
In the olden days, boxers used to fight until only one was standing. My parents fought and fought and fought every night and all they did was hold each other up.
The Kennedy assassination stunned the nation like nothing else since the attack on Pearl Harbor. We all remember what we were doing when we heard the news.
What followed was six weeks of sorrow. The grieving widow and her two small children. The horse-drawn caisson to the Capitol. The Requiem Mass at St. Matthew’s Cathedral. Lee Harvey Oswald and Jack Ruby. The endless documentaries on network TV.
This went on until the end of the year. Six weeks of sustained sadness. Six weeks of ruefulness!
I returned to the Berkeley campus in January to finish my first semester classes. I passed through Sather Gate and entered the Student Union Building where I met a deafening wall of noise. The Beatles were singing on the sound system, “She loves you YEAH YEAH YEAH.” Everyone in the building was singing along with them as outrageously as possible, especially loud on the YEAH YEAH YEAH.
This was our release— we were done with the enforced solemnity.
His rigid arms are pointing down as he walks the diver’s practiced pace toward the edge and deftly spins around to set his feet. The crowd grows quiet as he is on his toes, to seek and find the pulse of limber steel. With that assured, arms come up, palms flat and facing down; knuckles nudge his gaze.
Silence snaps—he takes the backward leap, exploding blind at forty-five degrees (too high, you flop; too low and over you go), and belly muscles pull his daggered toes into a row of waiting fingertips still reaching out directly from the chest. He shuts the knife exactly at the apogee;
his body forms a tight, symmetrical V. And just a blink beyond, he pops the knife. The head flies back and arms in tandem follow violently; so head, arms, and back design a deadly blade to cut the water clean. He nails the perfect dive. And slicing through the bottom of the sky, he suns in blithe applause.
Giving thanks in your heart is the alpha of gratitude. Gratitude is the sum of what you sense and say. Remembering to offer your thanks is the omega of gratitude.
Longing for things you lack is a flawed attitude. Always be thankful for what you have today. Feeling grateful in your heart is the alpha of gratitude.
Do not devalue the goods you currently hold. What you have today was only hoped for yesterday. Remembering to offer your thanks is the omega of gratitude.
Lust for things puts you in an anxious mood. You’ll find your happiness in the persons you most enjoy. Giving thanks in your heart is the alpha of gratitude.
The lives of those you love will increase in magnitude as you count your blessings and walk with them in the Way. Remembering to offer your thanks is the omega of gratitude.
The ungrateful person is one who journeys in solitude. Appreciation is the greatest kindness, far and away. Giving thanks in your heart is the alpha of gratitude. Remembering to offer your thanks is the omega of gratitude.